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More Personal. More Often.

As you can read by the title, this is going to be my personal blog. I'll still update my other one, but don't expect my person...

Monday, November 7, 2016

I'm Active Again!

Well hello all my lil' friends (If y'all are still following and shit.)

It's been forever since I posted on here, but that's alright. I've been busy!


But the easiest way to contact me would probably be through my email or my cell phone (I'll get hangout messages), so if I don't post on here for a while, send me an email!

Monday, August 15, 2016

Substance Abuse Classes Took Off with a Good Start!

"Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present."
- Jim Rohn

Today was rather good, I thought. I woke up rather early, 6:34 in the morning, went outside to have a smoke, then I had the breakfast. Scrambled eggs with cheese, white toast with peanut butter, a bowl of Cap'n Crunch, and some milk. The bowl of cereal is something I have everyday since I got to Chatham Oaks. I have more freedom, get to keep my cellphone at night, but it comes with a price in my mind; you can't get the wi-fi password. It's all good, though... I get to be on the computer after 3:00 PM.

Now, onto the quote. You have to think of the here and now, prepare for happiness. 

I learned something new about myself today... I can get into a mature and 'zenful' moment after a certain amount of coffee. French pressed, mind you. I wasn't bouncing off the walls, but I had some energy. I met a couple new people, offered some poetic music, and got to learn about some new diagnosis. I will list the ones I'm comfortable with sharing, and since it will give some idea on the sporadic entries:

  • Borderline Personality Disorder (Chronic)
  • Anxiety
  • PTSD
  • Dissociative Disorder
  • Depression
  • Methamphetamine use disorder
Sometimes my anxiety and depression get the best of me and I just don't feel like posting. Or sometimes I have too much going on (*coughs* Like sleeping and writing...*cough*). 

BUT! I have been getting in more meditation, becoming one with the resonating sound of a hang drum. 

And with that, I shall leave you with another quote..

"The best preparation for tomorrow is doing you best today."
- H. Jackson Brown Jr.

Monday, August 1, 2016

♡\( ̄▽ ̄)/♡ I'm Not Single! ♡\( ̄▽ ̄)/♡

 
 
 
 
TO ALL OF YOU FUCKERS THAT WANT ME...
 


I finally found someone that I'm really willing to settle down with. They are funny, sweet, and it seems like they actually love me for ME. Not because of what my body can offer.



*Screams and literally cries.* GOOD SONGS, GOOD SONGS. THANKS PANDORA!

This is literally what I do all day, if you look at my tabs.

 

/( ̄▽ ̄)/ GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT AWAY! \( ̄▽ ̄)\

"Give it away give it away give it away now,
Give it away give it away give it away now,
Give it away give it away give it away now!"
- Give It Away - Red Hot Chili Peppers
 
 

Well, y'all. Just to change it up, I decided to use RHCP lyrics. Lately, I've been listening to the No Doubt station on Pandora, and its been playing all the bands I grew up with. No Doubt, Gwen Stefani, RHCP, Third Blind Eye, Radiohead,311, and a few others. These are all good bands and I literally teared up last night when the station pulled a GORILLAZ song out from the depths of my music love.




I seriously felt a tear roll down my cheek as I listened to the song, bobbing my head to the sides.






Sunday, July 24, 2016

♪~ ᕕ(ᐛ)ᕗ



"Living so free is a tragedy, when you can't be who you want to be."
- Free by Powerman 5000







Okay, I recently just got back into Powerman 5000. I was thinking of all the bands I grew up listening to, and this is one of them. The others are Saliva, Korn, Nine Inch Nails. 



(☞◣д◢)☞ I WAS HACKED ☜(`o´)

Okay, Magnolias and Indigos, my main email address was hacked. BUT I TOOK CARE OF IT. I changed my password, securities questions, and everything else. So no worries there! 

BUT I HAVE SOME FUNNY RP NEWS!

THE BOUNCE HOUSE IS FINALLY OPEN. 

NOW HIRING. IF YOU HAVE A CHARACTER, OR WANT TO MAKE ONE SPECIFICALLY FOR THE BOUNCE HOUSE, MESSAGE ME.

Friday, July 22, 2016

(☞゚ヮ゚)☞ Last Night Was Horrible ☜(゚ヮ゚☜)

"Is adult amusement killing our children, or is killing our children adult amusement?"
- Marilyn Manson



Alright, Magnolias and Indigos, I'm back in the hospital for more than psych reasons. My medications were stolen, I was freaking out, and I relapsed. Something I hadn't planned on happening. So I'm just... fucked in reality.



With that being said, it's true. I love doing drugs. I love the feeling it gives me. But if it ruins my romantic relationships, I'll quit. And that's part of the reason I'm back in the hospital. To quit doing drugs. Now, after I said that, I'll offer some Hotlines for substance abuse. Not just for me, but for you all who are stuggling just as I am. THIS WILL BE UPDATED OFTEN.


  • the recovery village - 888.920.7151



GOD DAMN SON, IS THIS A MARILYN MANSON INSPIRED BLOG POST?

DAMN RIGHT IT IS.

Having people question what they believe in is... satisfying to me. There isn't a better way to test your beliefs than to introduce a sexually confusing person in your sight.


PEACE OUT, MAGNOLIAS AND INDIGOS.